How are you doing?

 Queen Anon, 

empress of chaos, who poisons information, who kills minds, who leads society into a shit pit.

Your Satanic Majesty, QAnon, consort of MAGA —

Fuck you, and the pigs you rode in on, 

shitting pigs shitting pig shit in the Halls of Democracy .

Your warriors, your Christofascist Crusaders, your lynch mob,

and your evangelists who wipe their asses with pages of the Holy Bible and feed it to their ignorant congregations as communion.

Holy consciousness give me adequate malediction, give me the profound profanity of Ezekiel to speak to White Evangelicals.

Never mind diplomacy 

with MAGA and his Queen, a Non-entity, 

Hey, she looks like Rudy Giuliani in drag!

How am I doing today? I’m OK, I’m fine, can’t complain ha ha ha

My vital signs are good

I’m trying to stay negative, Covid-wise

Do I feel alone and insignificant?

No, not remotely.

Despite uncertainty about my financial future, despite PTSD, despite compound bereavement, and being in quarantine for nearly a year and really no end in sight and despite hypertension and not enough good cholesterol and the neuroma in my ear and the torture chamber of rightwing social media and the corporate colonization of consciousness through these devices we are leashed to, I don’t feel alone and insignificant.

Not at all.

Not remotely, because I have remote control over my life.

I am a boomer, a white boomer blessed by our idol, our sick white idol formed from pig shit and paper.

Hey, boomer!

Boom boom boom boom

Dig the legacy of insanity passed down the generations

Boom boom boom boom

Our parents were driven insane by their war

Boom boom boom boom

Their parents were driven insane by war

Boom boom boom boom

Our parents’ parents were driven insane by war

Boom boom boom boom

Born of war, for war

Our civilization is a war machine, the empire of war, the empire of conquerors and Christo-fascist crusaders

Boom boom boom boom

Do I feel alone and insignificant?

The limits of my body

the limits of my self

the limits of my world

the limits of my perception of all that and anything

By the time my body disappears in crematory smoke, 

even before the loss of any memory or record of my existence —

more than I can say and less than I can say, because the microscope of my language can only see so small —

so, both more and less than I can say.

So I smoke

and throw ink at these walls of zen.

Sentinel

 America confronts dark forces, I read

Tonight at 9 it will be the 21st hour of the 21st day of the 21st year of the 21st century, I heard

We'll be OK until 9:21, I think

I'm just telling you what some people are saying. What more reliable source than "some people are saying" could there possibly be?

If the weird ideas you believed in are not true do you believe there is no truth?

The centuries flash past like decades or seconds

We confront dark forces

A half million will be dead from the virus this winter

Of course, the child who left the White House yesterday had no plan to distribute the vaccine, and of course he had no plan to lead a revolution, and of course he didn’t pardon those who believed he would join them in the sacking of Democracy, instead he sold pardons so he could pay his own lawyers, and of course he pardoned Steve Bannon, who had been accused of defrauding the Trump supporters who donated money they believed would go to building the wall that will never be built.

Yes, it would be a relief to return to the paradise of normalcy,

but it’ll take Amanda Gorman’s generation to imagine what the new normals can be and free the sunrise and be brave enough to see and be the light

I sit by my window every day like a sentinel 

Last week I thought I was turning into light and I will and I am,

brave or not, approaching light speed, the moon flashes on and off 

and millennia turn into centuries turn into decades years days minutes and at 21/21/21 21 o’clock count the seconds

confront my  dark forces and 

turn on my light,

if I dare

The United States of America is a domestic violence situation

The United States of America is a domestic violence situation

A few days ago a rally of Trump supporters became a mob. Trump supporters believed the election was stolen. Trump has taken every legal resource there is to challenge the election and all his challenges were thrown out of court because there was no credible evidence to support even the suspicion of fraud on a scale that would’ve come close to tipping the electoral count.

Trump has always claimed he won the popular vote in 2016. He didn’t. The Republican regime had four years to do voter reform and used the time to gerrymander and suppress votes while hyping the lie that voter fraud was a serious issue. Republican judges, Republican Senate, Republican Executive branch were unable to find evidence of voter fraud. Mitch McConnell stated this on the Senate floor last week.

They did find a great deal of evidence that Russia had interfered with the election, not only by hacking Clinton’s email, but by an intense disinformation attack through social media. It is amazing how easily both Democrats and Republicans fall for fake information weaponized to create discord among Americans. Trump’s political career began with the claim that Obama was not born in the United States. He said he had investigators in Hawaii who would find evidence that Obama was really born in Kenya. This wasn’t true, but there are still people who believe it, and now they believe the 2020 election was stolen from them. There is no evidence, but they believe.

Our family admired Billy Graham. In his later years Billy Graham seemed to embrace a universalist faith and an openness to Muslims, for instance. His son, who took over the family business, is another matter. After 9/11 Franklin found a market niche for preachers of hate against Muslims, as well as intolerance for people who don’t at least pretend to be heterosexual. Franklin Graham and Jerry Falwell, Junior, another preacher’s kid, made a killing selling their Hate Christ to struggling working people whose needs have been neglected by both parties for decades. People whose backs are against the wall, or who think their backs are against the wall, are susceptible to demagogues who manipulate their rage

Donald Trump is the Hate Christ anointed by rightwing televangelists who preached that Trump came to save the unborn and the State of Israel. He promised to make America great again by making the televangelist cult the state religion, by building a wall and putting children in cages and, above all, protecting the Second Amendment, and the profits of gun manufacturers. The preachers had convinced their followers that Democrats would take their guns away. They convinced too many of their armed followers that Democrats are a satanic army that will enslave them.

A few days ago, the rally to support Trump, became a call to combat the alleged theft of the American election. Trump and Rudy Ghouliani claimed this theft was happening inside the Capitol at that moment, when Congress was diligently following Constitutional guidelines for the transference of power to a new administration.

Donald Trump incited an insurrection with a massive disinformation campaign through social media and TV exposure on all networks. He created a political movement out of internet rumors. A significant part of America has been neglected by our government and cheated by our economic system. Trump said he was listening to them and he would help them and he would make America great again and would give them something to take pride in. He told his followers that their real enemy was in the Capitol destroying their last hope. No wonder they broke down the doors. Donald Trump planned and incited an insurrection.

I know that many people still believe Trump and still believe an armed revolution is inevitable. These people are armed to protect their families and to prevent tyranny and to kill Americans they don’t like. Some of them talk about a civil war

I don’t know how many people in the military or in police departments, or who are just heavily armed civilians, believe they have to fight a civil war right now, but January 6, 2021 was a demonstration of their fury and of the insanity of the Trump movement.

Right now we all need to study and practice nonviolent conflict resolution and treat this national emergency as a domestic violence situation. These national conflicts manifest themselves as domestic conflict. And there are weapons in the house. We need everyone to put their guns down.

We need to be able to trust our brothers and sisters.

The United States of America is a domestic violence situation and it always has been. We need to come to terms with ourselves and we need to pray for ourselves, pray to whatever is within your soul as your transcendent source or reference point, and face your self. 

I need to face my self.